Here I am. 40 years old and still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. I have so many options. I love being mommy. That is something I will always cherish. I love being a wife. Although I must admit, I am demanding and difficult, I do love my husband with all my heart. He is my safe place and my strength here. Unfortunately, he also loves me too much sometimes. Believe it or not.....I wish he'd tell me no sometimes. He always wants my happiness above his....not a bad thing....just kind of weighty..
Anyway, it seems there are always things thrown into my path I like, some I am even good at. But I just haven't figured out which one to devote my time to. I think my hands are sometimes in way too many baskets. I hope that by writing them out this way, I can go back and see what I was thinking. I have great support in all areas of my life. I don't feel alone in any of my endeavors. I just feel that as the "pleaser", I need to make sure I am doing what I am supposed to be doing for the right reason and not for anyone else. I have traveled down so many roads, I just wish that the right one would rise up and make itself known!! I think that is what we all want......sounds easy, but it really isn't.
So this will be my outlet. My sounding wall. My way of sorting through the arrows, the blessings and the twists and turns of life. Forgive me as I might ramble. Help me. Pray for me as I travel through......
About Me
- cheli
- I am a wife, a mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a confidant, a neighbor, a giver, a story teller, and a motivator. I feel like I have several titles and many books and chapters in my life. I have lived already through some of them. Others, I feel are blank pages, waiting to be filled. I have lived a lot of life so far.....more than many. Yet, I feel like there is still something God has left for me to do, here on this earth. I am just not sure what it is. Until I know, I am just passing through each chapter. Trying to fulfill my purpose. Learning that the story is not about me. Remembering that He is the author of my life, not me. Surrendering to being a tiny part of His play book, instead of the star!!
